30 days

November 5, 2014
10:21 AM
Panglao, Philippines
Cloudy warm day

Dear Life,

I always apologies every time I start letters for you as I SHOULD write more often to you. You might think that I have more time now that Im back home. But apparently if I have that time I should have written more often. Excuses....I know. I do not want you to think that I am taking you for granted and have forgotten about you because I simply have not. 

Anyway, enough of that. YES! It has been a month since I arrived back and WOW! what a a month of positive changes I am in. Perhaps all of these positive changes makes me busy these days which is very good. Im not only looking after guests which I am very lucky and very thankful to have but I also have time to look after myself. 

I am surprising myself on the things that I am doing for myself now. I have been doing more Yoga, improving my diet and walking India longer regularly. India and I are FIT and healthy which is very good. All of these piled up to me studying more about Psychology is keeping me more than preoccupied but also 'evolving' me. Yes I am currently 'evolving' into someone I believe to be a better me.

I really need to write to you more often. It does help me a lot when I do.


Lots of Love,
M. xxxxx

Positive Changes

October 19, 2014
7:18 P.M.
Incense Evening


Dear Life,

How are you? I am sitting tonight in a state of content having had a very good week and had a good weekend. I just had a simple dinner of left over stir fry vegetables with a good glass of Shiraz. I think the wine made the night very good and easy plus writing to you listening to blues is simply divine.

I always apolgise for not sending you letters as often as much as I can. I know I have reasons but still it would be better if I would write to you within the week but sadly I have forgotten as I have been busy.

Monday was the start of classes. Classes? Of course I must have forgotten to mention that I am taking online classes now. It is part of my goal to have positive changes in this new chapter in my life. I even went to the extent of finding a corner in my bedroom to place a study table. I am no doubting very interested in putting myself in a new routine which includes making the best of my day. Studying is something I am very drawn to so at the moment I am learning:

Spanish
Pyschology
Tourism

I really want to learn a new language and as much as I want to learn French, Spanish is more practical and would be very uselful considering it is the 2nd most spoken language after Chinese. It has been my dream to study Psychology but never had the chance to do so and now that I am given the chance to do it I AM TAKING THE CHANCE. Tourism is something that I can apply immediately with the industry that I am now in.

Aside from starting and enjoying my first week of class and mind you I have made myself a class schedule so that I will have focus too, I also decided to have a new hair style. I had the old hairstyle for yonks and so it is time for a change. There is more............I am also dedicating myself to doing more exercise. I have been practicing Yoga for 10 years but not as religiously as I need to. So now Im doing it everyday and Im improving my diet too as I want to gain a bit of weight. ;)

WOW!! You must think so many has happened for this week alone. Ohhhhh wait I must not forget that I have been busy with looking after guests too which most of them are 11th hour bookings. I have finally met and spoken to my closest friends. I cried when I hugged them but Im very lucky to have friends who support and love me. 

One of the most important thing that I did as well was to clear David's side of the wardrobe. It was essential for me to do it by myself. It was not easy but I did it. It was therapeutic for me to have done it, to put my past aside so that I will have space for my future. 

There are still a lot of stories that I havent mentioned to you but I will eventually find the perfect time to tell you all about it. For tonight I am content and happy. This I will treasure. 

All My Love,

Mykee xxxxxx

Shopping Galore

Sept. 26, 2014
Friday
Warwick, U.K.

 

Dear Life,

 

Im sitting quite comfortably watching "Murder She Wrote", dont ask- Im not holding the remote. I had a good day of shopping galore a.k.a therapy day. I really did not get anything fancy nor expensive. I bought something that I always wanted to have. I got myself a silver signet ring from an antique shop, a sleeping buddha and Ganesh from am Asian store. Yes I have a hippie side. The other day I got good bargains from the charity shop I volunteer at Leamington, gifts for mama & my trustworthy maid back home and more hippie things because I bought incense sticks.

 

I feel this sense of freedom by doing trivial things like shopping. I barely go shopping for what I want. Why? Well that is another letter to write. Now, Im just happy to have today.

 

Love,
M. Xxx

 

 

Escaping Drama

Sept. 9, 2014

10: 13 P.M.

Warwick, U.K.



Dear Life,

Just ended another week and what a roller coaster week it has been. My emotions were everywhere and tonight was no exemption. I honestly just don't want to think about it right now. I was only thinking of going for a week holiday to Wales with friends and their dogs. I miss the sea so much and I feel that I just need the energy around me to heal me but tonight, my partner's ex rang on the phone and started to stir things regarding our set of close  friends and how they were disappointed with my partner- D. This is an ongoing drama right after the funeral which is starting to really annoy me.

I really am not in the mood to write tonight on why they are disappointed simply because it is a very long story. Perhaps one day Ill manage to do so but it all boils down to D's secrets. It made me angry as I don't need this drama now, not now when I am trying to fix myself from my lost.

 

 

 

 

For now I just need to escape all of this drama.

 

 

Savouring Life One Day at a Time.

 

 

 

Love,

 

Mykee xox



Bad day

Sept. 3, 2014

10:20 P.M

 

Warwick, U.K.

 

 

Dear Life,

 

 

Not a very good day today. I saw his photos and video.

 

Heartbreaking.

 

I miss him very much.

 

It made me drink wine as early as noon. I had 5 glasses today which beyond my limit of a glass a day.

 

Lost and Heart break are torturous. I rather be burned alive.

 

 

 

 

I still Love hIm.

 

 

Mykee xxx

Fab Weekend

August 31, 2014

8:47 A.M

Sade morning

Warwick U.K.



Dear Life,

It is the last day of August and yes summer in Britain is slowly ceasing and cool autumn breeze is creeping in.

I really do not want to write about something poignant today. I just want to write on how good my weekend is. Friday I went to a 60th birthday party. We surprised Collin who is a close family friend (of my friend). There were about 20 close friends in the pub who all love Collin dearly. He was dumbstruck! To be at the age and celebrate it with all the people you love dearly is memorable. He did end up crying - bless him. I met new faces and was sociable that night - plus the red wine did help. We went to a curry house after that and brought the party with us.

Sitting there with new faces around me makes me think that everyone have stories to tell. I even spotted two gay couple having dinner which made me miss my love. But there is no doubting that I had a very good Friday night.

Saturday came and thank God I did not had any hang over, two of my close lovely friends took me to a country house Compton Verney - built 15th century. We had afternoon tea. It was indeed a treat! My partner did visit this place a few times and I was happy to have seen it too.

 

 

 

 

Sunday was even better when close friends took me to Warwick castle (built 1070). I am amazed by the history of the place both in and out. The weather was also beautiful and we even saw jousting in the castle ground.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I am enjoying the last bit of summer and there is no doubting that my weekend was fabulous!!

 

 

 

Savoring Life One Day at a Time

 

 

 

Love,

 

 

M. xox

 

 





Fear

August 30, 2014

8:57 A.M.

Listening to M. Peyroux

Warwick, U.K.

Dear Life,

Feeling down today. One of those days but glad that I read this:


“My goal right now is to keep walking through fear,” he continues. “I think everyone has that feeling that they are meant for something more. That there is this form of self-actualisation that has yet to occur. Fear is the only thing that stops us achieving our goals.”

                                                                                                                              Jason Segel

Battling on.

Savoring Life One day at a Time.


Love,

M. xxx