30 days

November 5, 2014
10:21 AM
Panglao, Philippines
Cloudy warm day

Dear Life,

I always apologies every time I start letters for you as I SHOULD write more often to you. You might think that I have more time now that Im back home. But apparently if I have that time I should have written more often. Excuses....I know. I do not want you to think that I am taking you for granted and have forgotten about you because I simply have not. 

Anyway, enough of that. YES! It has been a month since I arrived back and WOW! what a a month of positive changes I am in. Perhaps all of these positive changes makes me busy these days which is very good. Im not only looking after guests which I am very lucky and very thankful to have but I also have time to look after myself. 

I am surprising myself on the things that I am doing for myself now. I have been doing more Yoga, improving my diet and walking India longer regularly. India and I are FIT and healthy which is very good. All of these piled up to me studying more about Psychology is keeping me more than preoccupied but also 'evolving' me. Yes I am currently 'evolving' into someone I believe to be a better me.

I really need to write to you more often. It does help me a lot when I do.


Lots of Love,
M. xxxxx

Positive Changes

October 19, 2014
7:18 P.M.
Incense Evening


Dear Life,

How are you? I am sitting tonight in a state of content having had a very good week and had a good weekend. I just had a simple dinner of left over stir fry vegetables with a good glass of Shiraz. I think the wine made the night very good and easy plus writing to you listening to blues is simply divine.

I always apolgise for not sending you letters as often as much as I can. I know I have reasons but still it would be better if I would write to you within the week but sadly I have forgotten as I have been busy.

Monday was the start of classes. Classes? Of course I must have forgotten to mention that I am taking online classes now. It is part of my goal to have positive changes in this new chapter in my life. I even went to the extent of finding a corner in my bedroom to place a study table. I am no doubting very interested in putting myself in a new routine which includes making the best of my day. Studying is something I am very drawn to so at the moment I am learning:

Spanish
Pyschology
Tourism

I really want to learn a new language and as much as I want to learn French, Spanish is more practical and would be very uselful considering it is the 2nd most spoken language after Chinese. It has been my dream to study Psychology but never had the chance to do so and now that I am given the chance to do it I AM TAKING THE CHANCE. Tourism is something that I can apply immediately with the industry that I am now in.

Aside from starting and enjoying my first week of class and mind you I have made myself a class schedule so that I will have focus too, I also decided to have a new hair style. I had the old hairstyle for yonks and so it is time for a change. There is more............I am also dedicating myself to doing more exercise. I have been practicing Yoga for 10 years but not as religiously as I need to. So now Im doing it everyday and Im improving my diet too as I want to gain a bit of weight. ;)

WOW!! You must think so many has happened for this week alone. Ohhhhh wait I must not forget that I have been busy with looking after guests too which most of them are 11th hour bookings. I have finally met and spoken to my closest friends. I cried when I hugged them but Im very lucky to have friends who support and love me. 

One of the most important thing that I did as well was to clear David's side of the wardrobe. It was essential for me to do it by myself. It was not easy but I did it. It was therapeutic for me to have done it, to put my past aside so that I will have space for my future. 

There are still a lot of stories that I havent mentioned to you but I will eventually find the perfect time to tell you all about it. For tonight I am content and happy. This I will treasure. 

All My Love,

Mykee xxxxxx

Shopping Galore

Sept. 26, 2014
Friday
Warwick, U.K.

 

Dear Life,

 

Im sitting quite comfortably watching "Murder She Wrote", dont ask- Im not holding the remote. I had a good day of shopping galore a.k.a therapy day. I really did not get anything fancy nor expensive. I bought something that I always wanted to have. I got myself a silver signet ring from an antique shop, a sleeping buddha and Ganesh from am Asian store. Yes I have a hippie side. The other day I got good bargains from the charity shop I volunteer at Leamington, gifts for mama & my trustworthy maid back home and more hippie things because I bought incense sticks.

 

I feel this sense of freedom by doing trivial things like shopping. I barely go shopping for what I want. Why? Well that is another letter to write. Now, Im just happy to have today.

 

Love,
M. Xxx

 

 

Bonjour!

Sept. 22, 2014
9:26 A.M.
Warwick, U. K.
Tea morning


Dear Life,

I have problems with my old laptop which might be one reason why as much as I want to write away I hesitate. A few of my letters wont work namely -- z x c v m , . and enter tab. So I a using onscreen keyboard to type these letters in. Anyway, as long as I still can write but it does take time.

 

Weekend went well, and I challenged myself to get on the train after 8 years of not getting into one. Considering that the only transport that I have in the island I live are jeepneys and taxis and the last train I took was in Singapore 8 years ago when I was there looking for work. I managed train journeys well in Singapore but I suppose everything is new to me here in England to an extent. It would be odd to you on why I am making such a big deal about this train journey but to be honest it is something important to me. I did it and I managed to do it by myself. It gave me confidence that it really doesn't seem bad at all as long as you ask for help as I did when I got to the station. I must admit that I got worried that I might get lost, be on the wrong platform and end up in London!!!

 

Anyway I did ask for help and I made it to the other end.

 

Worrying doesn't help as I already know but sometimes could not help myself especially when I am going into something new and different. That train journey was significant to me because it gave me an assurance that new things are not so daunting and help is always around when I need it.

 

Ending this letter with this article I read on the paper. I hope you will like it as well.

 

Tiny steps that'll transform your life.

 

By the way I have decided to start French lessons last Friday too. I always wanted to learn French and so I am now. C'est magnifique!!

I will write to you soon dear Life.


Love,
M xox